Free Fall

I’m reaching the point of realisation
(once again),
that many things can be said with little words, with the added experience
that this does not have to occur
with the intention of hiding something
for any kind of reason,
but simply because ultimately
it boils down to a conclusion
which leads to another conclusion –
and not everything needs to be captured
to have been a valid experience.

I want peace for myself and with others.
Let the smelly wind of roars pass over my head. Creating this kind of non-reactive harmony
is a lot of effort that can take away from the peace of self
(and is possibly unstable harmony)
In meanness, we are looking for connection.
For an energy that can recognise our needs in our misbehaviour.
As a temper tantrum throwing toddler.
The world lacks connection and reflection
of how to communicate better.
Yet telling a toddler in pain to speak their mind eloquently won’t calm them down.
Allowing the misbehaving re-connection to make space for growth.

 

Requiring a balance in itself between being an individual and being part of a group.
As to grow into the role of the one
That nourishes growth.

It becomes easier to surrender individual self, when finding liking to serve and
connect with a group and
easier to take care of self when not totally aligned with and
somewhat distanced from a group.

Yet, it does seem dangerous to me to wield that sword consciously without manipulation of one’s personal perception of myself in a group.

Is that what they call game of life?

To create the role one is living.

The role to balance.

And to help us step into growth.

Is it possible to shine one’s soul that way, however?

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I am wishing for deep quiet and stillness.
Some intense internal rest.
It’s become too much to process.
Detachment occuring.
Reflective withdrawal.
Silence.

I don’t want to be part of anything right now
While still being afraid to lose the option of finding connection.
I prepare myself
For my

Free Fall 🍂 🍁

~ written by Michelle B.